He Provides

“God gives you your needs and your needs have been provided for” I kept telling myself. It was a broken record playing over and over again like one of those moments in your life that your brain for some reason wants to remind you of every single day. I felt like I was trying to convince myself that God had been faithful even though I am not going to lie, I definitely felt like He was holding back from me in that moment.

There was something I needed God to seriously intervene on and I just kept telling Him, “Okay God I know you will provide and I trust you.” But in reality what I meant was “WHERE IN THE FREAKING WORLD IS THIS THING I HAVE BEEN ASKING FOR FOR SO LONG?”

Now looking back I see just how entitled I was acting. My husband and I had just moved because we felt led by God, I changed Jobs, gave up luxuries, and I felt like it was God’s turn to give me this “need” I had been asking for since after all I gave up a lot for Him. I waited patiently. But I did snap.

Most of my honest conversations with God happen in my car. This particular morning I was sitting there crying and upset and I said this for the millionth time “God you say that you will provide for my needs and yet you’re not. I need this and it’s like you don’t even care.”

You see, we can measure our time here on earth. We do this by days and time but heaven can’t be measured because there is no end. It is for eternity. Since God resides in heaven which is not bound by time then why are we measuring God’s faithfulness and love on it? I actually don’t like the saying, “God’s timing is perfect” because God doesn’t work off of timing, he works off of His goodness and the opportunity that is best for his children. There I was sitting in my car just moments before work. It was 5:30am and I was a complete mess. It was his goodness and opportunity to answer my desperate prayer.

You hear it all the time and even sometimes preached from the pulpit, “God will provide your need. He will make sure you have food and water.” But how do you explain the children and the families starving to death and drinking water that gives them illnesses. How do you explain the people dying and being captured for their faith. How do you explain this. Truth is, we can’t. We know there is a devil that is here to kill, steal, and destroy but we don’t know why or how he chooses his victims. What we do know is that our treasure doesn’t lie in this world, but in heaven. and thank God for that because I don’t know about you but I think in heaven I would like to live a little better. This life compared to forever in heaven is such a short time.

I remember understanding this for the first time when my best friend passed away. I suddenly understood the brief time we have here. But even more importantly, I understood the eternity of Heaven. The pain that we experience on earth is no joke and I don’t want to belittle anyone’s hurt. Just remember “For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.” (Ephesians‬ ‭6:12‬)

The Holy Spirit reminded me that in the end the only thing I need in my life is Jesus. I was dumbfounded. He reminded me that If I didn’t have food, a roof over my head, friends, acceptance, provision, or anything that we see as a “need” it wouldn’t matter because at the end of our day the ONLY thing that matters is that we have Jesus and share Jesus in every season. Sure that might sound easy for me to say since I can honestly say I have never experienced those things, but when the Lord gets a hold of you, his words touch you to the core and his understanding is given to you in its fullness.

It was after this “ah ha” moment that suddenly the burden of my request that I was demanding God I needed, was lifted. Truth is, Jesus answered my prayer 2019 years ago on the cross. He provided my need. He paid my price. And he saved my soul.

This may not be the answer you wanted if you are pleading with the Lord over something you see as a need. I wish I could tell you that you are never going to struggle and that being a Christian will mean an abundance of finances, health, laughter, and ease. Accepting Jesus is easy. Following him in every season can be hard. But just remember that our treasures are in Heaven and our answer is always Jesus.

My Stylist and Favorite Online Boutique

If you have been following me on my Instagram then you know that I LOVE Shop Stevie. Every time I visit her site I fall in love with so many items and have to end up putting half of them back because you know, self control.

My favorite thing about her shop is that there are constantly new items available for sale. I hate when I go to boutiques and I feel like they only come out with new items a few times every season. I want what is new and fresh! Her items sell out pretty quickly which is why I always buy through a stylist.

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Everyone meet my Stylist, Liz Reeves. She is a Shop Stevie Rep and probably the cutest person on the planet! I shop through Liz because she has insider knowledge on when things will become available for sale, what size would be best for me (since I am mostly between sizes), and even helps me figure out where the heck my package is (jokes on me because the tracking number was in the confirmation email *palm to forehead*).

I don’t only shop through Liz because of her impeccable gift of putting together outfits, I shop through her because of her unwavering confidence she has in the brand and her way of understanding that clothing is so much more than what you wear, it is how it makes you feel.

With fall in full swing aren’t we all in search for those rich earth tones, ways to reinvent our style, and renewing our confidence through our everyday style? Check out Shop Stevie and be sure to work with a stylist like Liz for the best experience!

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Turtleneck Fashion

It is that time again to change the wardrobe! Bring the sweaters and jackets from the back of the closet to the front, break out your fuzzy leggings, and bring out those thick socks! I found myself this year, however, looking in my closet and realizing that when I went through my closet purge I gave away a lot of cold weather pieces (mainly because I will wear something until it just about falls apart). Continue reading “Turtleneck Fashion”